About eighty billion times today I have looked at this face and teared up with joy. Two years. Two very long years I waited for this boy. I know others have waited or are waiting longer. But this is my story, not theirs. I have loved each of my babies the same. I don't love this boy any more or any less than Payson or Jack. These amazing little ones are my world. But with Lucas came a relief, a peace, and lifting of some dark clouds that I had been waiting for for so long. This little boy is such a light in our home. I am so grateful to my Father in Heaven for sending this spirit. He's just amazing. And one post to tell you how lucky I am wasn't enough today.