Sunday, July 12, 2009

Be careful what you wsh for!! :)

Yeah, I know. I hardly blog anymore. A) I realized I was spending WAY too much time on the computer and not enough time getting things done around the house or not spending enough time with my kids. And B) I've been insanely busy. Seriously.

So what have I been so busy with lately? Let me tell you. Weekend trips back and forth to family weddings in Utah, summer activities with the kids, cleaning, laundry, more cleaning, more laundry, some more cleaning, and you guessed it! Some more laundry.

And another reason I've been so busy? Remember this post here? Ha! Turns out I absolutely ADORED every second of teaching my sweet CTR8 class. I think those five kids were the absolute best in the primary. Literally. Everyone was jealous of my class. :)

Anyway, a couple of weeks ago the bishop called me into his office. They had just reorganized the RS Presidency and the YW presidencies. I assumed calling. And I hadn't been in the primary long so I thought it would just be something that I could do on top of my primary calling. The bishop asked me how I was doing and how my testimony was and then said, "Well, thanks. I just wanted to see how you were doing."

Huh. That was weird. I figured that must just be something the bishop here did to keep in touch with members of the ward. Well, a week later on Sunday afternoon the ward clerk called and asked if I could meet with the bishop that Tuesday. The bishop called Tuesday night and asked me if Jason was available to come along with him. Luckily he was off that week.

I sat across from the bishop thinking, "So it must be what I thought before. Calling. Maybe he was just...testing the waters at that last interview?"

Then the bishop asked me if I would accept a call to be the ward Primary President. Ha! I literally laughed in his face. Quite irreverently. After a moment I composed myself and just shook my head. "Okay. What do you want me to do first?"

INSANE!! I have gone through so many thoughts in the last few weeks. First, just wondering WHAT ON EARTH the Lord is thinking!! Then feeling humbled and realizing that there is much I need to learn from this experience. Overwhelming stress jumped in somewhere realizing all the work I had to do in the upcoming few weeks.

But most prevalently I have had an overwhelming knowledge that my Heavenly Father knows me. Each of us. He has given me an incredible opportunity to draw near to Him, something I had been praying for. (Obviously I didn't think THIS would be the answer!)

As I have knelt in prayer, attended the temple, and had hands laid on my head as worthy men who hold His priesthood pronounced profound blessings upon me, as well as each member of my new presidency, I have had witness born to me of my Heavenly Father's love for His children. Those in the Green River 5th Ward Primary as well as each of us.

I hope to never forget these feelings. I hope that the testimony I have now will only continue to be strengthened and that I will have continuous opportunities to share it with His children.

I know the Lord lives and loves us. I know that without the tiniest doubt. I know that he answers prayers in ways that are better than what we want for ourselves. He hears us and listens to us and comforts us. He wants us to grow near to Him. I know that the way to do this is through studying His word, praying diligently, and serving His children.

These are the things I want my children to know more than anything else. I hope that as they watch me try to do these things, imperfectly, that they will come to know and love their Savior and Father in Heaven. I hope that they will learn to search, ponder, pray, and serve. I hope that they will love. Love themselves, love their neighbors, and love their Father in Heaven and older brother, Jesus Christ. I hope they will know what I know. I hope they will feel these truths so deeply in their souls that they can never deny it.

I can never deny it.

11 comments:

The Larson Family said...

That is awesome! You'll do great. I can imagine you're probably a bit overwhelmed right about now, but it's going to be so rewarding. Good luck! Oh, and I love that you burst out laughing when you were called. I'm not sure if I would laugh or cry. Laughing is definitely the better choice though.

Linda G said...

You'll do awesome!:) Good luck!

Nicole said...

Congrats!!!

r said...

Yay, a post! Good luck with the new calling :) You'll do great! (Beautiful testimony, BTW).

Jobi Niu said...

Awww.. McKenna! YOu're so sweet. You'll be PERFECT. It's going to be a lot of work, I can't even imagine.. Just being the 1st counselor in the YW presidency is SO MUCH work! YOU GO GIRL. CONGRATS

Mandi said...

Your going to do great! I want a better testimony like you have. I think it's cute that the bishop called you in and just wanted to know how you were doing.. That's cute. I would be soooo overwhelmed if i were you, Keep praying and you will know what to do. Love ya!! I miss talking to you. Glad to see you blogging again.

Megan said...

Congrats...and best of luck with the calling. I'm perfectly content with the "permanent primary substitute" calling I have. :) You'll do a great job. And you said back and forth to Utah for family weddings...any of those boys getting married in your family? Hopefully not the girls. :)

Lindsay said...

WOW~you will be just fantastic at that! Good luck!

Jeannette said...

That was a great post! Thanks for sharing a bit of your testimony, I very much enjoyed reading this. And you will do great with your new calling. With trials come even greater blessings:)

Jason & Kelli West said...

McKenna, I could think of no one better than you to be the pres of primary. You will do a fantastic job and the kids will love you. I love being in presidencies because you become so close to the women you serve with. good luck and have fun!!

Lali Johnson said...

your kids should be proud to have a parent like you. good luck!