Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Back at it!

During the first few months of the year I did so well staying healthy and losing weight. I was gaining strength and endurance and feeling REALLY good about myself. I was setting goals and holding myself accountable. And then I let it all go.

I've tried a few times to get back to it. It hasn't happened. I have gained back every pound, plus a few. I feel really lousy. I've made loads of excuses for myself.

So here I am, holding myself accountable to you once again. It worked well the first time! :)

But this time I'm laying all of my cards on the table. This has been a safe place for me. No judgment and loads of support. So here I go!

As of tonight I weigh 184.5 pounds. Yup. That's a lot. My frame should not have to carry this many pounds. My BMI is 29.7, considered overweight. Only 0.2 away from obese. Yikes! That scares me. When I was doing well I was about that far away from the healthy range.

For me, the healthy range is between 114 and 154 pounds. That's quite a range! My goal is set for 120 pounds. Some people might think that's too low, but it's what I feel is a HEALTHY weight for ME. Not all women in my height and age range, but for ME.

Numbers aside, I'm setting new goals. You know my long term weight goal. My short term goals are to drink at least 64 ounces of water a day, get 8 hours of sleep a night (if the kids will cooperate!), workout 6 days a week, consume between 1200 and 1500 calories per day, lose 2 pounds per week, try at least one new healthy recipe per week, and stop eating out.

Those are all things that I have found helpful to me. And next week I'll add a few more goals to the plan. Maybe some more specific goals. Right now, I just need to get going. I need to get back into the habit of taking care of myself. I am so much happier when I do! It helps my anxiety and depression, it helps me to stay productive throughout the day, and it helps me to feel sexy!! And who doesn't want to feel sexy every now and then?!

Join me if you want! I love support. And although I may not always be the best at implementing them, I have LOADS of ideas and tips for healthy living!! :) And I'll be updating my Scrawny Chef blog again!! Yay for sharing recipes!! I have a whole list of new ones to try!

I'm tired of my clothes fitting tighter. I tired of getting tired doing simple activity. I'm tired of feeling disappointed in myself. So here's to not waiting for Monday or for New Year's! Here's to making a fresh start happen NOW!!

P.S. This may or may not have a tiny bit to do with the new season of Biggest Loser starting up. :) LOVE THAT SHOW!

9 comments:

Tiffany said...

good for you for having the courage to get back to it! i'm helping my mom lose weight and have to tell her a lot that giving up won't help her reach her goal weight... it's tough work... that's for sure! keep us updated!

Jane said...

Yay for McKenna!! So proud of you! Whenever you need support, I'm here for you. I think you know that I am trying to lose weight, too so you definitely don't have to feel embarassed with me. :) You are so great McKenna!

linda said...

You go girl! You can do it!! I have faith in you.
PS I love biggest loser too! :)

r said...

You are so AWESOME! You'll do great!

I've been dreaming of losing 30lbs, maybe I'll tailor your plan to me...

Megan said...

Well, if I weren't pregnant I would be RIGHT THERE with you! After the baby comes I'll have plenty of losing to do! So I'll be watching you closely and looking for tips that work. Good luck! You'll do great! P.S. When will you be in Utah next? There's a baby shower for me :) in October.

Lindsay said...

That is awesome! Good luck! I know what you mean about that dang show that makes you a little more motivated. It needs to play all year long!!! But last week I started to try a little harder and lose a little more then a few lbs so good luck to both of us! I will be checking back often to look for tips and updates. You will help keep me motivated too! Thanks!

Jason & Kelli West said...

McKenna, you are super! I am right there with you in the same boat. I am so tired of being fat! I have never tried to deny it. I need to lose about 50 lbs. to get to my goal weight! I too want to feel sexy again! sigh.... oh to be skinny.

Liz Goble said...

That is really great that you are able to take back control of your life. I LOVE goals - they bring possibilities and give hope! Always remember to stay in control of your goals and don't let your goals control you. Because life is always changing...goals sometimes have to be tweaked. So my best advice is that if ever your goals start making you feel frustrated or guilty....then re-look at your life, re-look at your goals and start tweaking until those goals bring back hope and happiness.

Steffani Dastrup said...

You are amazing McKenna! It takes a lot of courage to look at yourself so closely! Good luck!