I need to vent. Because I'm alone and there's no one here to vent to. So you get it. Sorry.
Jason is gone this week. He won't be home until the end of next week. My house is a mess. Well, that's not entirely accurate. The mess is mostly contained to the kitchen. But it's starting to smell. And the smell makes me nauseous. So I'm avoiding cleaning it. Jack has been a seriously pill lately. Biting, hitting, attitude. I'm ready to give him away. Any takers? I'm exhausted. I can't get enough sleep. But when I sleep I have BIZARRE dreams! I woke up so many times last night, seriously disturbed by these strange dreams. I hate that about pregnancy. I haven't worked out (well, except once) this week. I'm just too tired. And lazy. And I've eaten crap all week. So now I feel even more like crap. I'm completely off of my routine. The routine that keeps my anxiety in check and keeps me sane. And I can tell the kids are missing the structure. I cried myself to sleep last night. Mostly hormones. I hate hormones. And I'll admit that I've only showered once this week. Ew. And I just pulled my hair back and threw my sweats back on. I hate this week. I want it to be over. I want to feel normal again. Someone come fix me.
Jason is gone this week. He won't be home until the end of next week. My house is a mess. Well, that's not entirely accurate. The mess is mostly contained to the kitchen. But it's starting to smell. And the smell makes me nauseous. So I'm avoiding cleaning it. Jack has been a seriously pill lately. Biting, hitting, attitude. I'm ready to give him away. Any takers? I'm exhausted. I can't get enough sleep. But when I sleep I have BIZARRE dreams! I woke up so many times last night, seriously disturbed by these strange dreams. I hate that about pregnancy. I haven't worked out (well, except once) this week. I'm just too tired. And lazy. And I've eaten crap all week. So now I feel even more like crap. I'm completely off of my routine. The routine that keeps my anxiety in check and keeps me sane. And I can tell the kids are missing the structure. I cried myself to sleep last night. Mostly hormones. I hate hormones. And I'll admit that I've only showered once this week. Ew. And I just pulled my hair back and threw my sweats back on. I hate this week. I want it to be over. I want to feel normal again. Someone come fix me.
5 comments:
oh no! so sorry you've had a rough week! you're awesome though... do the best you can. that's all the lord asks for!
I am glad you are honest. My husband works a job where I don't see him for 4 days at a time, and I am ready to give my son away at the end of each day too. If I were you, I would stay in my sweats and relax. Let the kids terrorize the house and then maybe tackle it after they go to bed. Or maybe just have some you time when the kids go to bed. Your kids still think you are the best no matter what. Good luck!
Whoa,I didn't know you were pregnant. Congrats!! I am having the same problem right now. I'll swap you kids, Brett for Jack. I have only showered once this week too. I think that you should take time for yourself, deal with everything later.
I've had some of those days myself.
Thank goodness for venting through blogging! I always feel better when I just get stuff done...I'm in that mode now. I made a master list, got overwhelmed when I looked at the list, then started on it. So much better. Here's to no sweatpants tomorrow! :) (Although I think pregnancy and sickness give you much more wiggle room!)
Oh man, I hate weeks like that. I hope you're able to get everything back in order and back on your routine. I'm the same way. I let things go and then it just seems overwhelming thinking about getting it back to where it should be. You can do it though! Just think about how good you'll feel when you're done. Good luck!
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