Belated New Year's Resolution

I'm making this official and I'm enlisting your help!! I have not been heavy my whole life. I am not one of those who can say I've struggled since childhood with weight problems. I don't have genes to blame it on. I have no excuses!! Reasons, definitely. Excuses, absolutely not! I totally used Payson as my initial excuse. I was pregnant. I was eating for two! And I definitely did! And then I took my time getting back to normal life after she arrived. Then came Jack. I did MUCH better with Jack. And right after he was born, I did great! I lost every pound I gained with that pregnancy. Granted, nursing helped this time. But then I was still stuck with my post-Payson-pregnancy body. Yuck! After Payson was born I tried LA Weight Loss. But after a couple of weeks of feeling like I was starving to death, I gave up on that one. Before Jack I signed up for Curves and that worked. But fifteen pounds later I was pregnant again and couldn't even drag myself out of bed in the morning to work out. Then after Jack came, I bought some workout dvds. They were really fun and versatile. The workouts included cardio, weight training (they even came with a cute set of pink weights!), kick boxing, salsa dancing, step aerobics, plyometrics, pilates, stretching, all kinds of stuff! I really liked them, even though they kicked my butt! And they came with a suggested eating plan. And I LOVED the meals! I felt like I was getting enough to eat and everything tasted great! And it was food the whole family would eat. Jason loved it and Payson even REQUESTED salads on occasion! And after two weeks I had dropped fifteen pounds! I didn't feel like I was dieting. I honestly felt like I was just changing my lifestyle and living more healthily. So what stopped me, you may ask? Why would I quit something that I enjoyed and that was working so effectively? I DON'T KNOW!! Well, okay. That's not entirely true. When I get stressed or bored or anything I crave crap. I am an emotional eater. If I've had a bad day, I know cheesecake will do the trick! But I'm so tired of it! So I'm vowing here and now to try again...this time, publicly. I am holding myself accountable to you, my blogging friends. I went grocery shopping last night and avoided the frozen foods. I shopped mainly in the produce section! Yea me! So I'm completely prepared to start tomorrow morning. I have all intentions of waking up bright and early and popping in one of my fun dvds and then I will follow up with a day of healthy meals. This will be followed with a lifetime of healthy choices! Now, I do have to admit that I'm nervous. I start every time with these same intentions and motivations. And every time I ultimately give up. The difference this time is that I have an alternative. When I feel stressed or bored or just an unexplained urge to eat crap, I'm turning to you. I hope not to bore everyone to death with my future posts, but I need you all. I need you to frequently ask me how I'm doing. I need your encouragement and support. I'm not hoping to be a twig. I honestly don't even care to get back to my high school size. I just want to be healthy again. I want to be able to feel comfortable around my skinny friends. I want to be able to take my kids to the pool this summer and have a good time rather than worrying if everyone is staring at the beached whale in the shallow end! I want to put Lola on a leash and take her for a jog and not be winded at the end of the driveway! So, please help me! I'll put in most of the work. I'll post my progress every week. I just need you to be my place to run when it gets tough, which it inevitably will. Wish me luck!!