Sunday, July 25, 2010

I am...was 7 weeks and 1 day pregnant. We were elated. We decided to wait to tell the world, not because of the miscarriage, but because we really felt that everything would be fine this time around. I just wanted to see how long I could keep it a secret. For fun.

I woke up in a pool of blood this morning. Of course, we lost the baby. I don't know how to do this again. Please pray for me. For us. We need so many prayers to get through this right now.

25 comments:

Lindsay said...

I am so sorry, and I love you. I know it is hard to but, Please remember the Lord will not give us more then we can handle, so although it seems like you can't survive this again, the Lord knows you can and he is waiting for you to lean on him for support. I will pray for his loving arms to be around you now and through the coming months. Be strong, be on your knees, and head and hands reaching up. Love you.

Nicole said...

I am praying for you and your husband today. I am very sorry for your loss and pray for a healing of your hearts.
Nicole

The Larson Family said...

Oh no, I am so sorry. I'll definitely keep you in my prayers.

Liz said...

oh McKenna, of course I will pray for you. Anything else you need/want let me know.

Tara said...

Peace, Be Still.....Sending you my love and praying for your comfort health and understanding. Prayers to your husband and children also. Love You!

B2 said...

Oh McKenna, my heart aches for you right now. I hope and pray that you will be blessed with strength and understanding. I am so so sorry.

Scott+Kimber+Ruby=Scimby said...

Oh McKenna and Jason, I am SO sorry. I will be praying for you and thinking of you both. No one should have to go through this, especially you guys. I really can't imagine. LOVE YOU.

Denise said...

Oh, McKenna. I'm heartbroken for you. I'm so, so sorry. =(

Erin and Family said...

so so sorry mckenna & jason. love you like crazy. tears, love, thoughts & prayers just for you. i need your cell number again so we can talk...mine died. please call me. love you!

Lali Johnson said...

You are in my thoughts and prayers ALWAYS. My heart hurts for you. When we talked earlier, I got off the phone and cried for you. I love you friend!

Christiansen's said...

McKenna, I am SO sorry to hear about this. I couldn't even imagine. I am SO sorry! Good luck, I wish the best for you!

Mandi said...

McKenna I'm so sad for you. I will keep you in my prayers. I am heartbroken that you have to go through this again. Remember the lord loves you and doesn't give us more then we can handle, even though it sure Dow seem like it at times. Turn to him and be strong!! I love you and I've been an awful friend! I'm so sorry!! Please call or text or email when your up to it! Loves!!!

Nic said...

McKenna....my heart breaks for you! I am so incredibly sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my prayers!

Lauren and Tyson Fiala said...

We are so so sorry for both you and Jason. You are in our prayers.

r said...

Oh McKenna! I'm so terribly sorry that you have to deal with such an incredible loss again. We'll pray for you and your family!

Jason and Bri said...

Oh my gosh Mckenna that is so sad!!! I feel for you and could never imagine. Know that we are thinking of your cute family and you are in our prayers.

Sara said...

My heart aches for your loss, McKenna. You have such a beautiful, sensitive way about you and I know this must just be devastating; again. You are in my prayers. Hug your sweet babies and let the ones you love comfort you - until the day comes that He will "wipe away all [your] tears."

Jason & Kelli West said...

Oh McKenna, i am so so so sorry. My heart aches for you. I will keep you guys in my prayers. I know you can get through this. Like everything else it will take time. you are awesome and i love ya!!

vaneblu said...

Your family is in my prayers, I am so sorry you have to go through this again, is not fair!
I wish I could jump on a plane and be there to confort you, but I am sending all my love from here to you and your family!

Shauna said...

All my love to you, McKenna. Big hugs!!

Kylee Clark said...

Hey Mckenna, Just wanted to send ya a hug. I sent you an email about a week ago, I don't know if you got it or not. it may have gone to the junk mail

HUGS!
Kylee

The Lewis Family said...

So I came across this years ago, and find it comforting in regards to miscarriages and stillborns. Hopefully you find it so as well.

“Daddy, why are all those people crying?”
“They are crying for you, my child.”
“Daddy, look at all their tears.”
“Each one of those tears is for you my child.”
“Why?”
“My child, it is because they love you.”
“Daddy, how can this be? We never met.”
“No, my child, I brought you back to me before they had a chance to get to know you.”
“Daddy, how is it then that they can love me?”
“My child, one doesn’t have to see, or touch, or hold in order to love.”
“Daddy, those two seem to be crying the most.”
“My child, that is because they loved you the most.”
“Daddy, why would you take me away if it would make them cry?”
“My child, I needed you here.”
“Daddy, will you please comfort them and help them to not cry?”
“My child, don’t worry, I will take care of them, you will see.”
“Daddy, will I ever get to be with those that loved me most?”
“O yes, my child, this I promise. You are a family for time and all eternity.”
~ written by Jake Hinckley, uncle to McKallister, who was a stillborn child

Juls said...

I dont know you, I randomly came across your blog. First of all, your family is beautiful! I just wanted to say, this post made me cry. It's amazing how many women must go through this trial. (For some, several times.) I can tell that you are very strong and very loved. You have a great support system. (p.s. From your pic on your sidebar, I don't see 40 lbs that could come off.)

Bridgette Knowlson said...

I, too came across this randomly. I understand first hand how you feel as well. I have 10 angels waiting for me in heaven with 3 here on Earth. I take comfort in knowing that we have the blessings of an eternal marriage/family and we will have ALL our children someday, and all will be made right. A dear prophet said, "Many mothers will be pleasantly surprised when the veil is lifted." I think I got that quote right. But you will have your baby(ies). Just be patient. The Lord loves you.

A. ShaRee Hathaway said...

I guess that answers my question. That sounds absolutely horrific! I'm sorry. Hang in there. You've always been a strong person with a strong character. You'll all pull through. I know it.